Onsdag 11 november

I'm sitting here and the one thing that goes through my head is that I'm so incredible happy that I'm sitting here right now. That I dared to go here to America, and I did something that scared me so much. That I stayed, even when I cried all day long (I promise, I cried almost every minute in school some days) because I was so homesick. That I finally listened to myself and stopped to think about what everyone els thinks about me. To stay was the hardest decision I have ever taken, but I did it, and I did it all by myself! I'm proud over myself now but it will be nothing compared to what I will feel when I go home in June.
It's hard to be here some days, and sometimes I miss people so badly, but I love it here. Everything is so different from my other life in Sweden and I'm doing something new everyday. In the beginning, I woke up with a hole in my heart, now I wake up with a smile. People who knows me can really see the difference between now and a month ago, now I go around with a smile and is enjoying every day. Every day is a challenge but I see the fun in it now, to push myself and fight my way through the challenges. I have the best family here and they will always be my other family, they do so much for me. It's amazing how people can open their home to a stranger and let them be a part the most precious thing in their life - their family. I can't thank them enough.
My friends here are also amazing. They let me be a part of their group and they make every day so much easier. To just get a spontaneous hug, a friendly smile or a textmessage can make my day. I'm going to have an amazing and fun year with them and it will be hard to leave them. No matter how much I miss my Swedish life, it will be hard to leave this life. But I'm not thinking about that yet because I have 7 more months to go with tears, laughs, amazing moments, bad experiences, challenges, fun stuff and everything what life has to offer.

I have so many plans for the rest of the year and I can't wait for what is coming next on my journey.

Love,
Malin